One has to kill a part of themselves to again get back life, that's how I define chemo.
Chemo just doesn't make you weak physically, it takes a huge toll on you mentally and psychology and this part is more difficult to fight with. My next chemo is after 2 days. Yes, I start freaking out two days before. Different people have different experience wrt chemo but for me in one word it has been hell. The best preperation for chemo is no preparation. Just keep your mind as diverted as possible. I always try that very hard otherwise I get hit by a psychological bout of Nausea.
It happens for two continuous days and by the time its done, I have no idea of what is happenening around me. Semi-conscious I guess. But I can't tell you the joy I feel inside when its done. Its like scoring 100% in exams, its like my biggest achievement possible.
Everyday is a small battle to try to win the war. You might not end up winning all the battles but this war, somewhere inside, you know you will end up winning. That is the only reason we go through pain is for a better life.
Till the time HOPE exists we all will sail through! :)
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